Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Outfit Post #6 : Black Is Not Boring

Hoooo finally Indonesia reaches its summer even it is still under 35°C it feels hot~~

The daylight seems very normal. I see the sun smiles so bright in the morning that it can melt everything on the ground, for example, this liquifiable creature.

It is so hot that the cat has melted.
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Back to the story, I am still working on weekends except Sundays. The heat in the air makes me too lazy to match any outfit to the office, because first, you will not have a cool look with sweaty tops and sweaty smell around your body (unless you are on vacation like at beach or, or whatever), and second, it takes times longer to the laundry. Ha yeah I wash them by hands. No washing machine allowed.

So I said to myself, "Let's find a quick way-to-go piece to wear!" while digging a messy clothes heap in my closet. Pull one, two, three, until I got a black thing and I remembered this is the t-shirt my bf bought for me. :D

Dress up in 10 minutes and way to go!




What I wear: ADA men t-shirt | thrifted black denim | studded handband in black | fancy watch (buy it from my friend) | silver titanium ring (from bf) | thrifted black flat shoes with bows

Eye Makeup: The Skinfood Rice Concealer #23 | NYX Matte Eyeshadow In The Buff (Upper Lid) | Sariayu Martha Tilaar Moistpome Eyeshadow Bena Nusa Tenggara (Lower Lid, only took the brown shadow)

PS: Pictures taken on July 2014

Friday, September 11, 2015

Epstein-Barr Virus Infection (Week 2)

If you are confused about what happened, make sure you have read the Week 1 first :)

Please don't ask if I'm okay. I've been dead before you just realized that I'm gone, so what you might find is my rotten body. Too late.


Lol jk because better news is brought to you this Caturday :D
*ba dum tss*

I think I've chosen the right antivirus. FYI, I took Acyclovir 400mg at first, then changed it yesterday with Methisoprinol 500mg. The fucking ultimate urticaria starts fading and/or darken very slowly but this time I can see the difference in some body parts so I boost the progress with Acyclovir cream or Gentamicin sulfate and medicated skin powder also to prevent the itchiness. This symptom is what makes me bothered the most, so it should be gone very soon. I've consumed many kinds of anti-allergies and antihistamin like Insidal, Celestamine, Loratadine, Deksametason, even Activated Carbon. I feel less fatigue than before. I can speak with a little opened mouth. Papayas, pears and coconut water help me keep hydrating my lips. My ulcers keep being smaller as I always treat it after eat, yet the gums look fragile enough. I haven't had toothbrush for days. At least I can gargle. :v If miracle does exist, I should be recovered at rate 70-80% tomorrow.

I have them all over ma bodeeeh! Aaaaaa!!

Aaaand duh. If you see this tedious chronology as a complain, you get it all wrong. I'm not complaining. I'm telling facts what I have been through and I appreciate so much you guys who have spent your time reading this pieces of shit. If you are kind of "seeing is believing" people, well I thought I've been using descriptive style so far in my writing so I hope you can optimize your brain usage for some creative thinking and do some research on what we call a technology named google. I'll repost it all perfectly arranged on my blog when I feel much better. Sorry for being sarcastic as I feel unstable during quarantine phase, but I love it. *Hozier-Take Me To Church played*

Let's worship the magic conch shell because at last, I had had my first warm shower. Ululululululu~ X'D It takes conclusion that I don't need to worry about bacteria multiplying anymore, since I've forgot the last time when I was scratching my back while sleeping.

This virus is kinda destructive for your body skin. It was a smooth back T_T

I walked through a path shone by sunlight(Uuuyeaah like Edward Cullen facing the sun scene lol), there I saw clearly all these iritated skin areas are about to remain as brown scars and hence assign me into a playful beauty mission: home skincare remedies for many purposes.
Think it's a good start for today. :)

Subject Y entered the shower room at 07:00 A.M. Cold water fallen on the subject body, soap indicated good cleansing,  sense of itchiness was nil, signs of hives growth wasn't found. Bathing trial successfully done.

Feeling fit enough to breath, I tried my luck to go back finishing my work. I wore mask or kerchief, mittens, arm warmer or hand band, socks, anything to cover the scars in case I got blamed for infecting someone (you know, smartass mouths blabber everywhere :v). I also took sanitizer and medicines I have to take for approximately 2 days more. But hey, what if someone was indeed infected? Haahaaa >:))

I did everything in slow motion. Walking like a snail, having lunch like granny, stepping upstairs and downstairs with heavy breathing (I work at the 4th floor), then sleeping on the desk few times when my eyes and hands were tired of seeing and writing numbers.

It was 5 P.M. , my boyfriend took me home and afterwards I felt the muscles pain come back, not too bad but it hurt enough just to touch myself. It was like fibromyalgia, if you have ever dealt with this kind of pain. I was afraid it would be hurt more, so I went bed much earlier after having a little dinner.

If only I didn't have to work, I would have stayed longer at home.

It happens. Alack, I'm relapsed. The pain kills me that I can't even clap my own shoulder or put my bag (or lighter thing) on my lap. I've been out of medicines from the doctor. I have prepared paracetamol as the analgesic but I don't take it in the end. Come on, 9 days of consuming medical things into your tummy through your throat is surely such a bitter memory. I choose to reduce my conciousness soon. That's all for today.

Good to know that sleeping is the right thing I do to recover at nights (and days during work, I do it when I have to)! The painful parts get warm at first when I'm taking a good rest, then the pain fades eventually since relapse, so my assumption is my body is trying to heal itself without any help of medicine. Cool, that's cool natural mechanism, isn't it? *like I don't know I'm human being* :3

Yes this is the day! Thank god, proudly said by me that I am totally in a good shape - normal shape tbh. LOL. There is no problem in moving body parts - I can walk, run, step upstairs and downstairs like usual and no difficulty in nomnomnom-ing snackies. All I have now is common pimples, fading brown scars, and a great hype of paperworks.

Now we're going to end this with gratitude. *drumrolls*

I can't express more than being thankful to my mom, dad and my boyfriend for treating me nonstop until post isolation. I appreciate the doctor so much who has taken care and given simple advices. Thanks to my high school friends, my college mates, Gramps at Idaho for supporting me, and there is a girl friend from Facebook giving me medical information. Thank you. :D Enough for the drama now let's go back to the habitat! XD

Bitch please, I'm back.

I consciously understand this is not such a heavier disease like heart attack, kidney malfunction, stroke or whatsoever. This is definitely a viral infection which attacks weak immune system that can be treated safely at home with proper medical care and less contact from the outside, or else, it can sentence anyone to uglier disease. Most adults have EBV in their body with or without realizing it - it may include you. I've ever had problem with this virus a year ago and it transformed into mononucleosis infectiosa. Once it attacked your body, the virus lives in your body in inactive status (in other words, it sleeps in one of your body cells), and there is big possibility for being reactive until your immune system weakens again, and you never know what disease it will create. When one is treated not in a hospital, it doesn't mean that the causes are trivial. Never underestimate any virus and disease.

The DIY tips for curing EBV infection is summarized enough here.
I forgot the source, but you can search it on google,

Additional info:
What I had had at all (I mean the allergy reaction) may be called Anaphylaxis (click here for Bahasa Indonesia)

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Epstein-Barr Virus Infection (Week 1)

Wanna hear pre-halloween story?
The story began when I was working like usual until there was something odd to feel.
Let's just to the point...

This is going to be disgusting enough, may not be safe for your-before-lunch lol. This is absolutely not FX make up practice.

Darken lips, check.

I name this August as Medical Month. There ain't no flu and cough, but it is indeed a tough period. My right leg got hit by a stupid motorcycler on the way back home with my boyfriend and it's swollen darkish blue. Two weeks before, there were bruises on random spots that also caused by my anemia and I had to give heparin sodium therapy. Aaaand today the doctor declared Epstein-Barr / EBV attacked my immune system.This is the second time with the same common virus. I'm feeling my lips bigger like Bratz's. About red rashes on face, I know it's not common pimples. My body muscles go all in pain even though I don't make any move (touch my skin and it fucking HURTS) and it is quite CONTAGIOUS that makes me think many times to not to go working. Fuck the job - even one move can definitely ruin my sleep. Antivirus is my best friend now.

You'll find out what's inside the cover. Keep scrolling!

Writing with all muscles in pain,

Katarina Yuri.

It was supposed to be a normal Independence Day but there was a sudden massive gang fight throwing firecrackers in my living district. An excellent idea to burn the town, idiots. Mom was almost stuck between the fight when she was buying medical needs for me. Everything didn't look fine and anyway I had to be given award: The Beast of the Day. Ha! I scared a group of foolish children. I came out from the quarantine zone only for toiletry needs and once morning sunbathe to kill any rash bacteria and that was the time when they were playing, so I could feel their curious eyes watching with little mumbling mouths to their parents. The two lines of Lazy Song lyric by Bruno Mars show what I only can do for days, but this viral infection gives me the feeling of drastic fatigue. Anyway, there is something wrong with the medical treatment.

This is the "wrong" thing. It is called Angioedema.

While the deads are zombie-fied, it is funny that this disease is like making friends with the antivirus I drank lol - you name it, allergy-fied, which causes Urticaria (click here for Bahasa Indonesia). I can't go working unless I'll be an epic epidemic at office. I was forced to sleep without moving due to painful muscles. I hold as much as I can to not to scratch the itches like a lousy cat. Mom and uncle laughed at my lips because it had been adopted first by Naughty store mascot, or nearly like a failed silicon injection. I hardly eat for getting severe ulcers on the whole mouth and sore throat. I can't even smile because my lips are extremely dry and full of curse. In other words, I'm trying so hard to speak with this infectious Bratz lips, but my dad called me by phone to see if I'm okay. Genius. I just answered "ennghhh" to let him know I was there and declined the call then I saw him at the front door bringing medicines. Err... =_=" All of this created emotional pressure that made got menstruation two times in a month, and the doctor said, "Yes, that comes from your mind." Big thanks to EBV.
Itchy urticaria - Wait, you haven't seen the worst part.

What you are seeing now: The ugliest mutated beast ever.

It's been five days of infection plus allergy. It was a big decision to cancel a formal invitation from the college English club, unless I'll be the mother virus during the event. No rashes on face anymore, so I look fresh at a glance until you see my whole red spots on body lol. I still suffer from fatigueness but I'm doing nothing. My lips are still extremely chapped with white ulcers which took about less than 45 mins to eat a normal portion of chicken porridge this morning. Becoming worse, my boyfriend accompanied me to see the doctor last evening and he gave me two kinds of anti-allergy to minimize the side effect from antivirus. I lately realized my swollen leg was healed, still get used to walk normally. Now there left some little bruises I can take care of, but the former swollen area and the scar I got from the previous accident is now a viral field of itchy urticaria. Haha. Who wants to scratch? It's free. >:D

I'm trying so hard not to scratch any single spot. *biting fingers*

Has anyone been following this crap? Sorry if it is such a disturbance, but I know many of you (will) never notice these posts. I'm not gonna stop writing since just in case I need it for medical report and suggestion.

All this time, the medical treatment shows a little progress. Bratz lips no more, mouth ulcers grew more. From the edge to the other edge of my lips, upper and lower in inner part, some white dots on the gums and tongue, and inner side of right cheek. I know, YIKES. But it is a bit better that today I could eat a bowl of oatmeal mixed with dice cuts of fermented soybean aka tempe for 35 mins. The dryness starts being hydrated by snacking papayas (Jesus I hate its aroma but I have no choice). Albothyl and Borax Glycerin really help to calm the sores, although I have to scream during the medication. Do not imagine.

In case you may be wondering how I eat my food.
The bad thing is I'm still suffering from urticaria as long as I consume the antivirus, even though the doctor had given me good anti-allergies, because it don't work optimally. They minimize the side effect every time I take the antivirus, and they cure the previous allergy in the meantime, which already spreads too wide. I got many large random areas of skin rashes on my back, my waist, my upper chest, and my upper hands. There are also red spots on tights too like mosquito bites but wider. I don't wanna see how my ass doin lol but it's not itchy. I'm glad the virus don't attack the genital area. You maybe wonder how I control the desire not to scratch'em. The anti-allergies have sleepy effect on me, but you know, we never know what we do when we're sleeping. I never know how long my hands are scratching unconciously until I awake. Moreover, sweats can trigger the itchiness worse, and this is dry season. Welcome to incredible summer curse.

The current risk is I have been doing research during this medical phase: every antivirus has the same side effect. If I take another antivirus and it fails, the curse will appear more. If I keep drinking the same antivirus, there will be no bigger progress. I would probably die of too much scratching lol. It needs a careful decision. It may be fatal but we never know until we try. The doctor kindly helped me finding an alternative. That's why I decided to spend the current antivirus first, then change it immediately.

No one expects some little red dots can turn into like burnt skin. It never burns anyway, just fucking itchy.

Wow, seven days of not having shower and lying on bed all the time with tired feeling. Being clean is great, yet in this case touching water means multiplying the bad bacteria. Water is the most effective media of disease widespread after the air you are breathing with, so watch out for your hygiene. The doctor said I should have been totally recovered today, if that was without allergy. -.-" I'm taking the new antivirus also with anti-allergies for prevention. Its dosage is higher, also more pricey, but it is made for overcoming EBV. It is good to see my ulcers turn into smaller dots which means soft foods are still needed. I have scream so much while medicating and it paid the price lols. I ate a portion of plain oatmeal with white tofu cuts faster for approximately 20 mins today and started chewing french fries slowly. Yes, fries. I didn't have any idea why dad bought me fries lol and thank god I can chew that because I'm bored to death with tasteless meals. Mom stared. X'D

An "island" created on my each underarm.

There is another little progress which shows that the redness of urticaria is fading gradually on one or two areas of body. It may take so looooong until the whole redness disappears. Its rate of itchiness may decrease a bit, as long as I avoid myself being sweaty so I'm using two fans in my room. It is more likely to make the temperature less of heat. Medicated skin powder and Acyclovir cream are supposed to give a better help. It may be a good sign and I hope the medic works faster. I'm worried of how long I should stay quarantined. I've abandoned my career. I've left my work. I've been a burden of my parents and my boyfriend. My brother doesn't care. Cats? I don't own any of them. :( I am alone. Deflated.

To be continued...